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29 November 2011
I am scared.

I need to go look for work now. I mean right now. Or else I can't go hong kong, can't go Australia, can't even go out with my friends. So im sorry friends if I decide last minute to back out. I can't help it. Everything is tumbling down. I am scared. Have never been this scared before.

But. I have a dowager at home to take care of. Plus my two sisters. How to take care of them and work at the same time? Yu is so much less responsible but she'll be the only adult at home if I go work. What if she gets one of her whims and just go out? That'll leave the two people who don't know how to take care of themselves and each other at home. Perhaps I shall take on more tuition. I really don't know what to do now. I'm tired.

Crying is of no use now. I need to get up and go. I want to run away. But I'm shackled to this place.

taubasa^^ what should I do.

~ { 9:28 PM }
remembering the days when u were by my side