Selfish, unfilial, childish, wastrel.

I only have three words for you: GROW UP PLEASE!

tsubasa^^ do unto others what you want others to do unto you. What goes around comes around.

Happy birthday Bao!

You turn a year older today! Oh my god we are all getting old haha! Okay I know we all have to study for exams next week so we all gotta jiayou! I love you bao! Take care and I'll see you soon okay! Hope you enjoyed our dinner at Buckaroo's! I did very much :):) let's go there again hehe! Best wishes!

tsubasa^^ bao rocks!

Recess week is ending and I haven't been studying

I went for the spo interview yesterday at the old police academy. The whole process took about 9 hours. It's the first time that my interview lasted that long lol. Reached too early and had to wait an hour for the interview to start :/ took 8 tests in total for the whole morning. They were mind draining. I hope that I don't fail them cause they are surely my death wounds if I fail to get through to the next round. After lunch, it took us another 3 hours to finish filling in all the forms. There were so much admin stuff to do haha. But we had a half an hour English essay test. I was like: huh? I haven't been writing essays since after my A levels. Lol. After which we had our physical assessment which involved taking height and weight and doing simple exercises to determine our coordination skills. The shocking part came when the examiner announced that this was only round 1 out of 5 in order for us to secure the jobs. Jaw-dropping moment. Well I do hope that I can pass through all rounds. We shall have to leave it to fate and my skills :)

tsubasa^^ there are some people whom I'd rather not see in a few days when school reopens. Oh well, we don't always get what we wish for.

來生緣

寻寻觅觅
在无声无息中消逝
总是找不到回忆
找不到曾被遗忘的真实
一生一世的过去
你一点一滴的遗弃
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你 也许分开不容易
也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己 情深缘浅不得意
你我也知道去珍惜
只好等在来生里
再踏上彼此故事的开始
生生世世
在无穷无尽的梦里
偶而翻起了日记
翻起了你我之间的故事
一段一段的回忆
回忆已经没有意义
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你 也许分开不容易
也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己 情深缘浅不得意
你我也知道去珍惜
只好等在来生里
再踏上彼此故事的开始
生生世世
在无穷无尽的梦里
偶而翻起了日记
翻起了你我之间的故事
一段一段的回忆
回忆已经没有意义
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失去你 也许分开不容易
也许相亲相爱不可以
痛苦痛悲痛心痛恨痛失自己 情深缘浅不得意
你我也知道去珍惜
只好等在来生里
再踏上彼此故事的开始
只好等在来生里
再踏上彼此故事的开始

To my nonet with love :)

tsubasa^^我們來世再做好朋友

What's my future profession?

A couple months to graduation and I'm still hovering nowhere near ground about what I want to do in the future. Sure, at first I set my mind on becoming a teacher an applied for the NIE post-graduate diploma programme. I was all excited about it and when I got called for interview I was so happy. But... The moment when I walked into the interview room, it struck me that I may not like being a teacher after all. Looking at all the stern faces of the interviewers, my first thought was: will I become like them :/ I decided on the spot that maybe teaching isn't cut out for me. I would find it boring and monotonous eventually. Maybe that's why I didn't do very well for the interview :p

When I reached home, I immediately applied for the senior police officer post with the police force. I didn't know what prompt me to do that but I realized that yes, I want to do something interesting, exciting and something I like. My choices include police officer, dxo and navy. Weird right? For a girl. But I do want to believe in my choices and go for it. Otherwise I'll regret it. Yes I've finally found something that I'm looking forward to.

But why is it that my friends are not encouraging at all? When they heard about what I applied for, their immediate responses were: but you don't look like you can be a police officer; don't do it you'll regret it; you can't do it. All these totally shook my confidence to the core. I mean, I'm doing something I like, so why can't I? I know it's ultimately my choice but a bit of support and encouragement from my friends would actually help a lot. Now I can't help thinking that if I fail, they will tell me: I told you so. But I will still go for it. Try my best and we shall see how it goes. This is my resolve. My family supports me though and I'm thankful for that :)

tsubasa^^ where's my courage?

Grad trip no more

How come we can discuss the grad trip until it feels like we are going to start fighting soon? This is so ridiculous! I mean, didn't we agree at the very beginning that what's important is that we go overseas together? The place doesn't matter. What matters is the company. How come it turned out to be such a disaster? Frankly, I am very very disappointed. I had my heart set on going overseas with everyone. Now all I feel is disappointment. And sadness. Makes me want to weep. What has happened to our group? Aren't we called 愛? I don't feel any love among friends at all. You all are the best things to happen to me in my uni life. I hate to see us quarreling over such an insignificant issue. I'm not smiling anymore. I don't know what's going on anymore. It's better to keep to myself.

tsubasa^^ teardrops over unworthy things

Catch-up session with boss is always insightful :)

Had lunch with my boss yesterday (which he treated yay thanks boss) and he popped the question: so what type of guys do you like?

I've always wondered at this question. Must a girl (or a guy) go announcing to the whole world what she's looking for? Isn't that a bit prejudiced thinking? I mean, you've already set your mind on what you're looking for and may have in the process of looking passed by the perfect guy for you.. People are always looking for the word "perfect". I guess most people (including me sometimes) don't know that imperfectness is perfect in some ways. I wouldn't know it since I'm evergreen lol!

But anyway, for boss, I answered the question as truthfully as I could. I've always been asked this question during camps and I always give stupid and untruthful answers. Why should I go announcing to the whole og what my type is? People who know me will know what type if guys I like. Even without asking. People who don't know what type works for me, I'm sorry to say that you just ain't that close to me. So yeah, boss you should be honored ah ;D

anyway his reply to my answer was: you're looking for the typical nice guy. Haha! Yes. I know I'm looking for a fantasy; a dream. But which person wouldn't want their other half to be the one they dream of? Sure. The world is a practical place. I have to be realistic I guess. But up until I actually meet someone who's my it, I would like to retain my fantasy. After all, a Pisces is a dreamer and a romantic. Which I am. If you're surprised, then you don't know me at all.

tsubasa^^ to sleep, perchance to dream...

It suddenly occurred to me...

"It's sad when people you know become people you knew. When you can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How you used to be able to talk for hours and now you can barely even look at them."

Sad, isn't it?

tsubasa^^ it's my life

Happy birthday Maat :):)

Okay so maat's birthday trumps valentine's day anytime haha! You turned 6 years old today! It's time to be less naughty and nicer to me ;) okay best wishes and blessings on you! We'll celebrate later tonight for you <3

tsubasa^^ another lonely valentine

Shifting

I wonder if I should shift my blog. Too many people reading it and I can't express myself freely. I guess I should. Eventually... And the new blog's address is only for friends who bother to care about me. I'm tired of taking care of somebody else. Let somebody else take care of themselves for once and better still, take care of me. I wish...

But I'll still stick to this blog. Updates about daily life and stuff. This is not me anymore. The mirror no longer reflects.

tsubasa^^ it's time to move

Ungrateful and unappreciative are characteristics of ugly people

Yes and I'm saying it's you. And you. Do you think we are all your slaves? Demanding this and that. You don't have hands and legs? Can't you do things yourself? Do you think mommy is always at your beck and call? And that daddy will tolerate all your nonsense? They are your parents mind you. Please be respectful. Mommy doesn't have to rush home from work to cook dinner for you. So please be appreciative of what she's doing for you. Stop complaining about the food and such. If you think you can do better you cook! I won't tolerate your attitude anymore. It's war from now on. And don't you go bullying xuan just so you can. You don't deserve the honor of scolding her when you can't achieve the same thing yourself. So get the hell off her back.

And you. You think we're all very free to look after your son for you? That you work and my mom doesn't need to work? Hello excuse me. You don't have to cook. Or even bother about the daily chores. So stop complaining about my mom. If you're so capable you do it yourself too! My parents don't have to tolerate your nonsense too.

Please be a bit more appreciative and a bit less ungrateful for what my parents are doing for you two. Guma has passed away and nothing can change that. So get into your tiny minds that my mom is not her. She can't do things as well as guma but she's trying her best. So take your criticisms somewhere else and stuff them up your own asses if you want. Otherwise get the hell out of my house. Thank you very much!

Happy Birthday tong!

Happy birthday to my cousin haha! You're now a year older! And that's getting closer to my age if you don't know yet hehe :p okay all that matters is for you to be happy and stay healthy! Start eating eh cause you're getting skinner :/ bad for you and I'm sure you know it. Well best wishes and I shall see you soon :):)

tsubasa^^ we're getting older but not any wiser

Happy belated birthday LY!

I was supposed to be posting this entry three days ago but I forgot lol. So I'll just do it today :):)

Went kl's house to bai nian and we had a lot of fun there! Met ly's boyfriend who kind of looks like a hongkong-er to me instead haha! Be happy always LY!

Started planning for our grad trip. Can't wait to grad although it means working hours! Shall enjoy my last few months of school :)

tsubasa^^ I forgot to post for kx on 6th jan too! Sorry love, I'll make it up to you :):)

Happy Birthday Xuan!

Today is my youngest sister's birthday and she's officially 12 :):) my god xuan you are growing up fast! Sorry that we are not able to give you a big celebration this year but I'll make it up to you I promise! I have to owe you a birthday present too :/ if I can I'll give you by next week :) study hard for your psle this year and I hope you get into a good school! Love you lots sis!

tsubasa^^ it seems as though I'm the only sis to xuan. The other one is too much of a self-absorbed to care about her.